Where am I heading now

I am turning into my mid age soon.. very very soon. Have been going some though on what, where, when, which, and how in my life.

I got to admit that I am not as aggressive in work for the past 2 years (after my late mother passed away) I hardly working for overtime. I leave the office to the dot everyday. Not much complaints on the current job anyway, if I excluded the political issues in the company. Should I stay in this company longer?

Some friends asked me why I still very pamper my brothers even they are an adult now. They have to know our family history to get the answer. We, the family, been through many hardships together which built a strong bone among our brother and sister hood. I don't think I can stand here with their support. Am I suppose to let them create their own world / kingdom?

Health.. A very important topic. I have been facing some food eating disorder lately... either I ate too much or too little. Don't think this is healthy.. should start control my diet. Have been thinking to sign up for gym after getting a new job offer. Is it a good idea? or maybe I should focus of getting my eating habit back to normal first?

A friend told me that I have a "great love". Always put others ahead of ourselves.. Am I? Maybe I just try be nice?

Further studies.. I have been put this on hold for ages. Maybe when other things moving on track first.. the job, the personal life, blah blah blah...