Streetful day

Today, I am very stress. The stress is coming from my work and relationship. Let don’t talk about work as I know I still need to deal with it daily. I just need to do more mediation or yoga to de-stress myself.

As for relationship, I am stress because I have lost the direction of the relationship. Before I decided on this relationship, I already know that there are few things I can’t expect much from him.
1) Time: He needs to spend time with his parent during weekend and he has a busy schedule in work. We normally met few hours after work, and it is very rarely on the weekend. I don’t see the problem for this, because we are in our early 30’s, we must career focus and we do need to spend time with our parent. I will normally travel few hours to visit my mom every month, since I am working away from my hometown.
2) Commitment: He has informed that he still not ready to start a new relationship, as he had a bad experience with his previous relationship. Ok! I am fine with the waiting period.

This evening, he told me this “If you can find someone better than me during this time, I will be happy for you.” Because he felt it is unfair for me to wait. For me, a fair or not fair should come from me and it is not up to him to judge.

Me: “What do you mean?”
Him: “Nothing, I just felt that it is not fair for you.”
He repeats the above 2 issues: time and commitment.
Me: “Are you meant you want to end the relationship?”
Him: “No! No! I just want you to have option while you are waiting for me.”
Me: “I am not those types of people have 2 or 3; you only can choice one, either as a friend or a relationship.”
Him: “Hmmm. I only can tell you, I am really in between the 2 options. But I want you to select.”
Me: “If I select I will choice to friend, since it good for both of us.”
Him: “... “

The conversation last for few hours. I felt like I already fall into a darkest place and waiting for a light… Am I really want to wait, or I should let him go..