Confessed

I have a confessed. I really like HIM!!!

I don't want to let the feeling go even I know there is no future for me to keep this feeling as he is attached. Somehow, I still like to keep it.

and this has create a Dilemma for myself. A reader posted this comment on my another blog when I talking how I felt about him.

Why do you torture yourself?
Why are you chasing something that's not going to lead to anywhere but misery?
Why are you continue to run towards darkness while you know the light is at your back? Just turn and run the opposite direction!
You have all the answers and you know what is the right thing to do, but instead you are doing the opposite!
Love yourself!

yF, the upset anonymous

I willingly the feeling of secret love of him to torture me as I don't feel to let it go yet.
I know I am chasing something which not going to lead to anywhere and I willing to wait for the moment till I totally lost hope on it
I am unable to turn back to the light now as I already sink in too much. It seem to be too late to turn back... yes, I can but not now until I can't handle the pain anymore or there is totally no hope for me.
Lol!! Like always, you read my mind.. and thank for knowing me so much.. you are so rite that I do have the answer; however, not the right timing.