Answer to old question..

Me : My ex just ask me the million dollar question wrote “Is there any possibility in yur future you'll come bck to the States? The Republicans have made every thing more difficult, but jobs for professors and researchers are given top priority for immigration.” I really don't know how to answer.

HY: hahaha.. man.. you are indecisive!

Me: I don't want to give him hope and disappointment.

HY: then say no immediately.

Me: My replay is “As return to US, I am indecisive at this moment. “

HY: You are indecisive for a lot of thing, except your job.

Me: Yeah loh! This is why I have been telling you that I have control on my work but not my personal life. I always mess it up.

HY: You didnt mess it up. You just don’t know how to handle. How to prioritize. How to make a decision.

Me: this is why I have slowing down my career now and looking into my personal life

HY: You are smart enough to make a decision. It is just that you are afraid to make a wrong one

Me: You are so right.

HY: Aiya, you should know in our life. We have to make a lot of decision. No way we make all the right one. Don’t be afraid to fail.

Me: I am just too predestines and I have to make always make the right one. Moreover, I have made some big wrong decision in my life.

HY: Well, that’s over.

Me: Hmmmm.. really not sure how to deal with it and till now I still have no answer.

HY: It’s ok.. let play more mahjong and we go to genting then you will know how to take risk and make decision. Life is like gamble, we need to take risk and make decision. It might not be what we like that we decided but we have to decide.